4 months have passed...

4 months ago… Wow…4 months fly by…where do I even being with my blog. I will tell you right now that it was probably the toughest 4 months of my life. Let me begin: September 6th- Found out I was pregnant October 3rd-In the hospital for a miscarriage October 8th-In the hospital for a bout of colitis October 12-17th-Went to MI to visit my brother, my sister-in-law, my beautiful new niece, and my Dad November 13th-Found out my Dad passed away… December 5th-Found out I was pregnant January 10th-In the hospital again for another miscarriage There is where I have been the last 4 months….one of the worst 4 months of my life. I have never hurt so bad, never cried so much and never grieved so much. I had to deal with 3 deaths in 4 months…plus I lost my last Grandma in May. Since January 10th…I decided to take the rest of the week off. I couldn't’t go back to work, I couldn't be happy, I couldn't’t be anything…I just needed to be. About 2 months ago, I planned on going to MI from January 17th-25th, to do more stuff at my Dad's house. Which I did…I need to go see my brother, my sister in law, my niece and nephew and my Mom was coming to visit us in MI as well (She is in WI). But what I did realize the first weekend after my 2nd miscarriage was that I needed to spend time with myself and I needed to take care of myself. How did I do that…through exercise. I took Yoga classes, took doggy for an hour walk, took a couple of Nia classes (yoga, martial arts and dance), went for a couple of runs and did a CrossFit Class…ouch but loved it. Since I have been a triathlete for 15 years..I have always said this: "Triathlon helps keep me in balance…mind, body and soul." But now I need to put this: "Exercise helps keep me in balance…mind, body and soul." In these heartaches, I have learned to take care of yourself, it is OK to cry, surround yourself with love ones and remember to always be true to you. I forgot that…that is what I was doing the last 15 years.